There's so many things that I think "I want to write about this!" and open up the blog writer, but never get around to finishing it lol. But just reflecting a lot tonight so why not?

Today I went to a lunch with my longtime family/childhood friends Eunica, Steven, Andy and Jimmy (and respective plus ones haha). It's something we decided we wanted to do ever since Jimmy's Christmas house party last year. I guess that feeling of seeing each other again after a whole life of high school and time apart made us really appreciate our years as friends up till now, so we felt like a catch up/hanging out as 'old people' now haha.

As we were walking down the road to Darling Harbour behind each other under umbrellas with our respective plus ones (haha Andy and Steven shared an umbrella cos they were each other's plus ones...nawwwww), I saw Jimmy walking ahead with Harleen (whom I met for the first time today), holding hands with her. It was strange because I obviously knew they were a couple and everything but seeing Jimmy being intimate and a bf figure with someone I didn't know after knowing him for so long, it was like a shock to my naive childhood self. Haha sounds weird. I guess it was the realisation that we all had really moved onto the next stages of our lives, still holding onto the memories we all shared and that were bonding us together, and yet we are changing constantly, that to stop and worry about it will only result in being left behind. I felt it a little back in high school when everyone was getting friend circles within their respective high schools that I could never understand nor be a part of, but it wasn't as strong a concern I think because I thought of it as a given, what with us all being in separate high schools, while now we're all 'grown up' in our uni stages where we have the liberty, desire and means to see each other of our own accord. For some reason seeing us all being involved in our own relationships now makes the change so much more apparent. I guess I'm still coming to terms with that. But as I watched Jimmy and Harleen walking in front of us hand-in-hand, I found comfort in the warm hand that was holding mine tightly and, at least momentarily, my uncertainty dissipated and I knew it was a good thing for all of us.

As D drove me home with the rain pelting down on the car windows, the harbour couldn't be seen from the bridge at all because of the fog, and it looked almost like a winter wonderland. Despite the raging violent weather outside, the sounds were soothing. I like the sound of rain haha. And listening to HSM on the way home, with both of us just belting our hearts out as if knowing exactly which corresponding parts to sing, I felt completely at peace. Doing something so simple and so shamelessly, it was like we were children just able to share our love for something we both enjoyed, and nothing else mattered nor existed except for that very moment we were experiencing together. It's moments like this that I wish everything would just pause and I could sit there with my eyes taking it in so I never forget it. In fact, I WAS sitting there with my eyes closed at times and almost crying out of happiness (weirdo...hormonally unstable I swear.)