What's the point if it's forever going to be an endless race to catch up?
The symptoms are there. I'd know cos I was once a part of it.
It's only a matter of time.

Bubz is quite wise.

Dont really know how else to describe myself right now...

I was so happy after Jap continuers today...well not like I really did particularly well or anything.
Just...being able to talk with people of similar interests and hang out for a few minutes after a stressful exam (altho it was quite fun :3)
It was very nice.

I missed Rina a lot. Havn't been able to talk to her for a long time cos we no longer have our many classes together =(
Also...I couldn't say it.
I couldn't ask her nor confront her about it.
It's just...
I'm a coward.

I took about half an hour to walk back from Pymble to my house today.
I guess normally if I'd been in the physically exhaustive condition I was in I would've asked for mum to pick me up but...I just wanted to be alone I guess.
Alone, just taking my time with a general direction to go.
Listening to my music.
Thinking about things.

I almost wanted to just sit down in the primary school park and stone.
It was weird.
I think...I just had this rush, this wave of feeling about a particular thing.
And then that kinda washed me out for a few hours.
It was also weird weatherwise, knowing it was 6:30 and the sun was still quite in the sky (lolwhut)
But at the same time it wasn't warm.
I was glad  I wore jeans today.
And I thought, dayum it doesnt even feel like the end of spring nearing summer.
It hit me that it's November today already.
And that means schoolies is in 2 weeks exactly.
And again I thought, dayum I hope it's not this cold when we're down south.
Or was it just me? Removing myself from the warmth around me?

Haha no more poetic stuffs...english is over (would LOVE to say NO MORE ESSAYSSSS! =DDDDD but...I have history extension on thursday TT AS IF FOUR ESSAYS TODAY WASN'T ENOUGH DDDDDDDDDDD; stoopid modern...)
About that...yeah I think I completely stuffed up the last essay (Cold War) cos they asked a question on something I shouldl've known about but didn't study...like at all...shiez.
So I'll be lucky if I scrape a 10/25 for that section 8D Like no kidding...
And then I have to take into account that none of my responses were A-range worthy imo...
So I probs got liek...60%? =DDDD
Shieeeeezzzz

Oh yeah, do you know I feel so stupid...
Cos I have to consciously tell myself not to talk to you.
And then I feel even stupider...cos I'm thinking that on the other side you probably don't notice the difference...and your free time is spent on more interesting people.
And then I feel the stupidest for even worrying...even caring about that...
Cos you know...it just goes to show how right you guys are.
About me being 'obsessed'.
-sigh-
Yeah I don't want you to know how many times I opened up your sms conversation then closed it.
Cos I'm scared.

On another note.
I lent Jo (Wong) my good luck 'mascot' (as Mrs Hall delicately put it haha xDDD) during Jap continuers.
<3 Hope it helped -cheeksquish-

-sigh-
Someone cheer me up TT
I'm meant to feel relieved that I knocked off two exams 6 hours today!!
-constipated face- (LOLWHUT)
Only four hours, 2 exams left...then I'll be free and happy...yeah?

Right?

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